23 hours was all it took for him to cave. Seriously dude. Grow a spine can or not?
Don't keep the popcorn just yet, I smell another breakup coming soon...
Then again, I may have sufficiently pissed him off such that he doesn't want to share details of his exciting and dramatic love life with me any more. Which may be a good thing.
Showing posts with label Disgusting. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Disgusting. Show all posts
Break Up Count: 13895 times and counting.
Playing Aunt Agony again, out with the popcorn, watching the drama unfold!
昨晚的号啕大哭，真的有吓到我一下下。 “你是自找的，活该！” - 这样的念头有想过。Deep down I'm thinking, this is karma!
这样的痛苦，我也有经历过。虽然是很想很想让他尝一尝这种求生不得，求死不能的痛，做人还是不要这样恶毒。
可是反过来想一下，after all the shit he did to me, 这种人也不值得我去同情，你说是吗？反而我觉得, this is letting him off too lightly!
Any bets on how long it will take this time for them to patch?
Playing Aunt Agony again, out with the popcorn, watching the drama unfold!
昨晚的号啕大哭，真的有吓到我一下下。 “你是自找的，活该！” - 这样的念头有想过。Deep down I'm thinking, this is karma!
这样的痛苦，我也有经历过。虽然是很想很想让他尝一尝这种求生不得，求死不能的痛，做人还是不要这样恶毒。
可是反过来想一下，after all the shit he did to me, 这种人也不值得我去同情，你说是吗？反而我觉得, this is letting him off too lightly!
Any bets on how long it will take this time for them to patch?
My life has been full of drama again.
Recent new developments served to make me even more pissed, and make my battered heart even more dead.
I wouldn't even say I feel hurt anymore because it's more like -WHATEVER- with an eye roll now.
Also good la I need my heart to harden and die in order for the feelings to ebb away and to be able to move on.
But as a result I think I've become more cynical and skeptical especially towards guys, love and relationships. I was once a bushy tailed bright eyed naive and innocent girl who believed in love - pure, geniune, unadulterated love - and had grand visions about love and what it meant, but thanks one guy, my beliefs have been completely shattered. THANK YOU FOR KILLING A PART OF ME.
So the week has pretty much been crappy. Basically felt like shit for the earlier part of the week, was a little emotionally unstable, ended up turning into an obsessive, neurotic stalker, was constantly thinking about him and wondering what he was doing, tormenting myself with thoughts of him and her together out on dates, having fun, being crazily in love, feeling like someone stabbed + twisted the knife in my heart when I saw them posting flirty messages on each other's Facebook walls, and trying to cope with the loss, the emptiness and gaping hole in my life.
It really feels goddamn awful.
Thing about being hurt by the same person over and over again - somehow you get desensitized to it. It still hurts and it doesn't feel good, but the magnitude and impact that you feel can't quite compare to the first time, or the second, or the third... we just get numb, and start to build walls around us to cope.
I have been reading a lot of depressing articles on Thought Catalog, could identify with lots of them. Someone left a comment on an article and this was what it said:
"Why wasn't he afraid of losing you when you were so afraid of losing him? because you never shared yourself with him, never were honest with him... and so he never had a part of you to lose."
Feels like this is me.
***
On Thursday I met with K for dinner. She went through similar shit before (but is now engaged and has her happily ever after!) and I did feel much better after talking to her. That very same night, I got a call from the person who had been ignoring me for the past few days. I did what every silly person would do. I picked up the call.
It was a call telling me that it was over with him and P, and that he felt relieved and somewhat happy about it because to put it mildly, there are many things they can't see eye to eye on. Of course I was skeptical (and rightly so). But ok, I was a little happy that they broke up.
On Friday night I got another call. This time it was J crying over the phone. He was crying because he felt hurt and heartbroken and in his words - "now I know how you feel". WTF. Do you see how many shades of fucked up this was? One simply does not come crying to their ex and expect the ex to lick their wounds for them after they break up with their current boy/girlfriend. Furthermore, I have yet to completely get over him, was still pissed, and was just only starting to feel marginally better about him disappearing from my life. You want to talk about hurt here? WHO IS MORE HURT I ASK YOU?
My first reaction was - eh why the heck are you feeling hurt? Just yesterday you were telling me how happy you were after dumping her. You told me you that didn't even like her. Yet here you are feeling heartbroken. So this only means that what you told me were lies and that you did feel something for her. MEN. I don't understand them.
I honestly felt no sympathy for him because he deserved it. And I told him that. He went into this relationship with both eyes wide open. If you know you don't like the girl, why agree to be with her? This must be karma or something.
And then I got angry and indignant because he and her were together for 3 weeks, and he can be crying over the breakup, while I stuck by him for 2 and a half frigging years, and yet he can be all nonchalant about it. It goes back to the whole he doesn't love me thing which I shall not rehash.
When I was arguing with him he said a whole lotta other stuff like "you can't say that I dumped you because we weren't even boyfriend and girlfriend! How can you dump someone who was never your girlfriend?" Fwah. FUME. 这种没良心的话你也说得出。好歹我也曾经对你付出过，我对你的好绝对不会少过对一个 “男朋友” 的好。贱人！
So in my anger and spite I wrote him another lengthy email lambasting him and basically accusing him of a lot of stuff.
Tonight, just hours ago, I found out through Facebook that they were flirting on each other's wall again. So what does this mean? Ta-dah! Back together again. Zzzzzz.
In spite of myself (yes I should have more backbone seriously), I called him and asked him what the hell happened. Apparently this morning he asked her to reconsider, read my email, got angry, and decided to get together with her. /roll eyes. But then now he is thinking of breaking up with her again because of all the yada yada yada problems AND I also found out that she made personal attacks against me. OK she really crossed the line here. She said I had no pride for sticking to a guy doesn't even like me. She said I was stupid and an idiot. WAHLAO EH woman what did I do to you? My opinion of you just plunged 10 levels down.
So will J break up with P? Dum dum dum dum. He claims he wants to, but I have a feeling that he won't. Stay tuned.
My life is like a soap opera now and each day brings a new episode. -_- So we'll see what tomorrow brings.
I was just almost gonna recover and then this happened.
The smart thing to do is of course to ignore and remove him from my life completely.
But easier said than done.
One thing I'm pretty sure though, is like what Taylor Swift sang, "We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together".
At least now I'm past the stage of feeling down in the dumps and moping and crying.
We all need to learn from this: 7 Dating Lessons I'm Still Working On Learning
Recent new developments served to make me even more pissed, and make my battered heart even more dead.
I wouldn't even say I feel hurt anymore because it's more like -WHATEVER- with an eye roll now.
Also good la I need my heart to harden and die in order for the feelings to ebb away and to be able to move on.
But as a result I think I've become more cynical and skeptical especially towards guys, love and relationships. I was once a bushy tailed bright eyed naive and innocent girl who believed in love - pure, geniune, unadulterated love - and had grand visions about love and what it meant, but thanks one guy, my beliefs have been completely shattered. THANK YOU FOR KILLING A PART OF ME.
So the week has pretty much been crappy. Basically felt like shit for the earlier part of the week, was a little emotionally unstable, ended up turning into an obsessive, neurotic stalker, was constantly thinking about him and wondering what he was doing, tormenting myself with thoughts of him and her together out on dates, having fun, being crazily in love, feeling like someone stabbed + twisted the knife in my heart when I saw them posting flirty messages on each other's Facebook walls, and trying to cope with the loss, the emptiness and gaping hole in my life.
It really feels goddamn awful.
Thing about being hurt by the same person over and over again - somehow you get desensitized to it. It still hurts and it doesn't feel good, but the magnitude and impact that you feel can't quite compare to the first time, or the second, or the third... we just get numb, and start to build walls around us to cope.
I have been reading a lot of depressing articles on Thought Catalog, could identify with lots of them. Someone left a comment on an article and this was what it said:
"Why wasn't he afraid of losing you when you were so afraid of losing him? because you never shared yourself with him, never were honest with him... and so he never had a part of you to lose."
Feels like this is me.
***
On Thursday I met with K for dinner. She went through similar shit before (but is now engaged and has her happily ever after!) and I did feel much better after talking to her. That very same night, I got a call from the person who had been ignoring me for the past few days. I did what every silly person would do. I picked up the call.
It was a call telling me that it was over with him and P, and that he felt relieved and somewhat happy about it because to put it mildly, there are many things they can't see eye to eye on. Of course I was skeptical (and rightly so). But ok, I was a little happy that they broke up.
On Friday night I got another call. This time it was J crying over the phone. He was crying because he felt hurt and heartbroken and in his words - "now I know how you feel". WTF. Do you see how many shades of fucked up this was? One simply does not come crying to their ex and expect the ex to lick their wounds for them after they break up with their current boy/girlfriend. Furthermore, I have yet to completely get over him, was still pissed, and was just only starting to feel marginally better about him disappearing from my life. You want to talk about hurt here? WHO IS MORE HURT I ASK YOU?
My first reaction was - eh why the heck are you feeling hurt? Just yesterday you were telling me how happy you were after dumping her. You told me you that didn't even like her. Yet here you are feeling heartbroken. So this only means that what you told me were lies and that you did feel something for her. MEN. I don't understand them.
I honestly felt no sympathy for him because he deserved it. And I told him that. He went into this relationship with both eyes wide open. If you know you don't like the girl, why agree to be with her? This must be karma or something.
And then I got angry and indignant because he and her were together for 3 weeks, and he can be crying over the breakup, while I stuck by him for 2 and a half frigging years, and yet he can be all nonchalant about it. It goes back to the whole he doesn't love me thing which I shall not rehash.
When I was arguing with him he said a whole lotta other stuff like "you can't say that I dumped you because we weren't even boyfriend and girlfriend! How can you dump someone who was never your girlfriend?" Fwah. FUME. 这种没良心的话你也说得出。好歹我也曾经对你付出过，我对你的好绝对不会少过对一个 “男朋友” 的好。贱人！
So in my anger and spite I wrote him another lengthy email lambasting him and basically accusing him of a lot of stuff.
Tonight, just hours ago, I found out through Facebook that they were flirting on each other's wall again. So what does this mean? Ta-dah! Back together again. Zzzzzz.
In spite of myself (yes I should have more backbone seriously), I called him and asked him what the hell happened. Apparently this morning he asked her to reconsider, read my email, got angry, and decided to get together with her. /roll eyes. But then now he is thinking of breaking up with her again because of all the yada yada yada problems AND I also found out that she made personal attacks against me. OK she really crossed the line here. She said I had no pride for sticking to a guy doesn't even like me. She said I was stupid and an idiot. WAHLAO EH woman what did I do to you? My opinion of you just plunged 10 levels down.
So will J break up with P? Dum dum dum dum. He claims he wants to, but I have a feeling that he won't. Stay tuned.
My life is like a soap opera now and each day brings a new episode. -_- So we'll see what tomorrow brings.
I was just almost gonna recover and then this happened.
The smart thing to do is of course to ignore and remove him from my life completely.
But easier said than done.
One thing I'm pretty sure though, is like what Taylor Swift sang, "We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together".
At least now I'm past the stage of feeling down in the dumps and moping and crying.
We all need to learn from this: 7 Dating Lessons I'm Still Working On Learning
A freaking cockroach appeared out of nowhere and landed on my hand when I opened my wardrobe!!! 0____0
Now it has disappeared into the depths behind the cupboard after a few sprays of insecticide and I don't know if it's still alive or dead.
Super grosssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
Apparently it's not even the first time that a cockroach has emerged from our cupboard!!! And this is the first time I'm hearing about this!!!!
There's no food or anything in the cupboard, just clothes. I've been using towels that a cockroach might have presumably crawled on to wipe my body!!!!! GROSSSSSSSSSSS x 99999999!!!!! *insert emoji horror face*
Cockroach grossness aside. Had the most xiong KK training (with weights!) ever since we started our attempts to train on Saturday and the muscles on my left leg are aching. Just one leg. Guess this means my left leg is a lot weaker than my right!
Approximately 8 weeks left to striking "climbing a mountain" off the bucket list!
Oh also I saw a gay couple openly groping each other in the pool. You know, the water is transparent... I can still see if you decide to stick your hand into your friend's swimming trunks. Just sayin'. :D
Now it has disappeared into the depths behind the cupboard after a few sprays of insecticide and I don't know if it's still alive or dead.
Super grosssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
Apparently it's not even the first time that a cockroach has emerged from our cupboard!!! And this is the first time I'm hearing about this!!!!
There's no food or anything in the cupboard, just clothes. I've been using towels that a cockroach might have presumably crawled on to wipe my body!!!!! GROSSSSSSSSSSS x 99999999!!!!! *insert emoji horror face*
Cockroach grossness aside. Had the most xiong KK training (with weights!) ever since we started our attempts to train on Saturday and the muscles on my left leg are aching. Just one leg. Guess this means my left leg is a lot weaker than my right!
Approximately 8 weeks left to striking "climbing a mountain" off the bucket list!
Oh also I saw a gay couple openly groping each other in the pool. You know, the water is transparent... I can still see if you decide to stick your hand into your friend's swimming trunks. Just sayin'. :D
On the 350th day of 2011 my true love gave to me....
AN EPIC FALL WHILE CYCLING IN PULAU UBIN!!!!
Do not ever go cycling in Pulau Ubin. It's DANGEROUS. TREACHEROUS. And not to mention it's damn tiring coz of all the rocky paths and uphill roads.
And if you die die must go, I have nothing to say except good luck. LOL! Nah, but please go slowly when you go downhill! Don't be geh kiang like me and whizz down only to lose control of the bike. Yes I know, having the breeze blowing in your face is quite shiok, but losing half of your toenails is not shiok at all!!! :x
I fell at the slope going down while exiting Chek Jawa. There's a big quarry there, and according to the policemen who cleaned my wounds, that is a very accident prone spot. SO YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!! Thankfully a resort van passed by the spot where I had my accident and I hitched a ride back to the ferry terminal instead of walking all the way.
I herewith attach some photos for your viewing pleasure. I think 90% of the people who read my blog (which consists of a grand total of maybe 5 readers) are also on Twitter, so perhaps you have already seen them.
Here you go! All in its disgusting glory!!!
This was taken after the blood kind of dried, but before I sought medical attention. My toes were dripping blood when I fell. Literally dripping blood. The earth in Pulau Ubin is stained with my blood!!!
The next day after the fall, trying to keep my toes dry while bathing. Btw, food wrap doesn't really work that well in keeping things waterproof. Just so you know.
Taken last night, before my mom cleaned the yellow stuff on my right knee away. My left knee as you can see, is doing pretty well. Just a minor abrasion.
Woohoo! Disgusting!
I've not managed to take photos of the wound on my elbow but rest assured that it looks more or less the same as the above. I've also removed the bandage on my toes after keeping it on for 2 days and assessed the damage. Half the nail on my 2nd and 4th toes dropped off, but at least I still have half a toenail left! It doesn't sound as painful as described, really. My toes are relatively pain free, compared to my knees, which are still pretty sore.
The sad thing is that I probably won't have a nice pedicure for CNY! Haha bimbo much.
I've got more stuff to blog about besides my big fall but I shall save all these for another day! It's the last work week of the year (MANY HAPPY CHEEEEEEEERSSSSS!!! :D) and I have a week-long (forced) break next week! Gonna catch up on allll my backlog and update my one-photo-a-day blog.
Oh and I fixed the GIF image of my baking conquests! Scroll down to look! :)
AN EPIC FALL WHILE CYCLING IN PULAU UBIN!!!!
Do not ever go cycling in Pulau Ubin. It's DANGEROUS. TREACHEROUS. And not to mention it's damn tiring coz of all the rocky paths and uphill roads.
And if you die die must go, I have nothing to say except good luck. LOL! Nah, but please go slowly when you go downhill! Don't be geh kiang like me and whizz down only to lose control of the bike. Yes I know, having the breeze blowing in your face is quite shiok, but losing half of your toenails is not shiok at all!!! :x
I fell at the slope going down while exiting Chek Jawa. There's a big quarry there, and according to the policemen who cleaned my wounds, that is a very accident prone spot. SO YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!! Thankfully a resort van passed by the spot where I had my accident and I hitched a ride back to the ferry terminal instead of walking all the way.
I herewith attach some photos for your viewing pleasure. I think 90% of the people who read my blog (which consists of a grand total of maybe 5 readers) are also on Twitter, so perhaps you have already seen them.
Here you go! All in its disgusting glory!!!
This was taken after the blood kind of dried, but before I sought medical attention. My toes were dripping blood when I fell. Literally dripping blood. The earth in Pulau Ubin is stained with my blood!!!
The next day after the fall, trying to keep my toes dry while bathing. Btw, food wrap doesn't really work that well in keeping things waterproof. Just so you know.
Taken last night, before my mom cleaned the yellow stuff on my right knee away. My left knee as you can see, is doing pretty well. Just a minor abrasion.
Woohoo! Disgusting!
I've not managed to take photos of the wound on my elbow but rest assured that it looks more or less the same as the above. I've also removed the bandage on my toes after keeping it on for 2 days and assessed the damage. Half the nail on my 2nd and 4th toes dropped off, but at least I still have half a toenail left! It doesn't sound as painful as described, really. My toes are relatively pain free, compared to my knees, which are still pretty sore.
The sad thing is that I probably won't have a nice pedicure for CNY! Haha bimbo much.
I've got more stuff to blog about besides my big fall but I shall save all these for another day! It's the last work week of the year (MANY HAPPY CHEEEEEEEERSSSSS!!! :D) and I have a week-long (forced) break next week! Gonna catch up on allll my backlog and update my one-photo-a-day blog.
Oh and I fixed the GIF image of my baking conquests! Scroll down to look! :)
Talk about extreme. This has by far got to be the strangest, most disturbing and most disgusting fandom encounter I've read. It's beyond obsessive! I think the fan in question is severely DERANGED!
Caveat: The article in question may lead to some rather disturbing images.
I feel very sorry for Taecyeon. It's really bloody (no pun intended) disgusting! OMG. It ain't easy to be an idol star nowadays...
Caveat: The article in question may lead to some rather disturbing images.
I feel very sorry for Taecyeon. It's really bloody (no pun intended) disgusting! OMG. It ain't easy to be an idol star nowadays...
I believe a beetle just got decapitated by the fan.
Heard a look "TUK" and then saw some beetle parts on the floor.
Poor beetle, that's definitely not the nicest way to die.
And I saw a cockroach in the living room too. My dad took the mop and smashed it, and then threw it out of the window.
Pity the fella who happened to walk by our unit downstairs (if there's any)... Yucks.
Heard a look "TUK" and then saw some beetle parts on the floor.
Poor beetle, that's definitely not the nicest way to die.
And I saw a cockroach in the living room too. My dad took the mop and smashed it, and then threw it out of the window.
Pity the fella who happened to walk by our unit downstairs (if there's any)... Yucks.
There was a huge fat lizard residing right underneath the keyboard! Like barely inches away from where my hands are now!
GROSS. Imagine, I was in such close proximity to the disgusting creature. I lifted the keyboard to kill some ants and I see this big fat lizard staring right back at me. *shudder*
Anyway my brave mom smacked the lizard to death after ensuring that it is woozy enough by spraying some insecticide.
GROSS. Imagine, I was in such close proximity to the disgusting creature. I lifted the keyboard to kill some ants and I see this big fat lizard staring right back at me. *shudder*
Anyway my brave mom smacked the lizard to death after ensuring that it is woozy enough by spraying some insecticide.
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