I feel so happy at times, so lonely at times, so included at times, so left out at times.
I wonder what people think of me. What image do I potray? Happy and cheerful? Cold and solemn? Quiet and shy? Loud and noisy? Hah, believe it or not, I've shown all these character traits some time or another this year. Sad as it may seem, people's impressions and opinions of me do matter, although I try not to care. Maybe it's just this I-don't-really-care mentality that enabled me to survive almost a whole year in a sort of "new" environment. OK, NJ's not that "new" to me anymore. But I don't really like changes. I like stability in my life. One that I can know what to expect.
I get satisfied easily, I realize. As long as nothing is going wrong, as long as I can smile and laugh each day, as long as I can make people laugh and that people don't hate me or think badly of me, I'll feel happy and blissful. Friends can really brighten up an otherwise boring and mundane school day.
Was chatting to two of my classmates over ice cream on Wednesday, and I realize that the bunch in our class actually aren't that bad. They're actually nice individuals. Well, save for a few. And I made a few realizations too. Things aren't what they really seem.
Anyway, on Friday Mr Low told the class that had the greatest improvement in Maths. :) Came as a surprise to me, and I'm still rather suspicious as whether I deserve that honour and the prize that comes along with it. Because as far as I know, I haven't really made any improvement in Maths. Huh.
Mr Low's not going to follow us up to year 2. We'll miss him. He's a very nice teacher, actually. Very patient.
Our whole class can get promoted. And yes, 6 memebers of our class are qualified to take S papers. And I predict that a few more are appealing to take too. No S papers for me, no thanks. I know that I can't make it. And I don't want to overtax myself by trying to accomplish something that I won't be able to do. I'm just glad that I can get promoted, even though I have to go for a retest in December to determine whether I can carry on taking 4 subjects. As I said, I get satisfied easily. zhi1 zu2 chang2 le4 (Rough translation: know your limits and you'll be happy.) I used to say this to all my friends who complain about their "lousy" grades when they so obviously did much better than me.
I wonder what people think of me. What image do I potray? Happy and cheerful? Cold and solemn? Quiet and shy? Loud and noisy? Hah, believe it or not, I've shown all these character traits some time or another this year. Sad as it may seem, people's impressions and opinions of me do matter, although I try not to care. Maybe it's just this I-don't-really-care mentality that enabled me to survive almost a whole year in a sort of "new" environment. OK, NJ's not that "new" to me anymore. But I don't really like changes. I like stability in my life. One that I can know what to expect.
I get satisfied easily, I realize. As long as nothing is going wrong, as long as I can smile and laugh each day, as long as I can make people laugh and that people don't hate me or think badly of me, I'll feel happy and blissful. Friends can really brighten up an otherwise boring and mundane school day.
Was chatting to two of my classmates over ice cream on Wednesday, and I realize that the bunch in our class actually aren't that bad. They're actually nice individuals. Well, save for a few. And I made a few realizations too. Things aren't what they really seem.
Anyway, on Friday Mr Low told the class that had the greatest improvement in Maths. :) Came as a surprise to me, and I'm still rather suspicious as whether I deserve that honour and the prize that comes along with it. Because as far as I know, I haven't really made any improvement in Maths. Huh.
Mr Low's not going to follow us up to year 2. We'll miss him. He's a very nice teacher, actually. Very patient.
Our whole class can get promoted. And yes, 6 memebers of our class are qualified to take S papers. And I predict that a few more are appealing to take too. No S papers for me, no thanks. I know that I can't make it. And I don't want to overtax myself by trying to accomplish something that I won't be able to do. I'm just glad that I can get promoted, even though I have to go for a retest in December to determine whether I can carry on taking 4 subjects. As I said, I get satisfied easily. zhi1 zu2 chang2 le4 (Rough translation: know your limits and you'll be happy.) I used to say this to all my friends who complain about their "lousy" grades when they so obviously did much better than me.
I've decided that I need to find some quizes to do. Haven't done one for quite some time.
Ugh! I think the new layout looks terrible because of several important but unfortunately missing elements. It was supposed to look good! Stupid Geocites. And Tripod. And all those servers who don't want to let me link my image files from their server. Gah! Shall leave it as it is until I find one nice webhosting service.
I don't feel like doing my powerpoint presentation. I'm time-a-wastin'... lalalala...
Ugh! I think the new layout looks terrible because of several important but unfortunately missing elements. It was supposed to look good! Stupid Geocites. And Tripod. And all those servers who don't want to let me link my image files from their server. Gah! Shall leave it as it is until I find one nice webhosting service.
I don't feel like doing my powerpoint presentation. I'm time-a-wastin'... lalalala...
Yay got the archives fixed. And I need to find a good web hosting service... I've applied to be hosted under someone's domain, and she's agreed to it, but she hasn't sent me an email bearing details... we'll see how that works out.
Printing lots of stuff now. Talentime 2003 proposal, the budget, performance guidelines, the judging criteria... and my project's dry run for the oral presentation is this Wednesday! -gasp- I haven't done anything about the my powerpoint presentation yet! Must make this a good job. Coz I think our report's already quite screwed up. Guess I'll have to sacrifice some sleep today. Sigh! Woe betide the lives of students...
Printing lots of stuff now. Talentime 2003 proposal, the budget, performance guidelines, the judging criteria... and my project's dry run for the oral presentation is this Wednesday! -gasp- I haven't done anything about the my powerpoint presentation yet! Must make this a good job. Coz I think our report's already quite screwed up. Guess I'll have to sacrifice some sleep today. Sigh! Woe betide the lives of students...
It was supposed to be a nice new layout, but my image files won't load. So I tried storing them in tripod instead of geocities and now it's even worse. Gah. Pardon the broken images seen everywhere. I need some time to find a suitable host and fix it.
And I was suddenly (and unpleasantly) reminded that our project work report is due tomorrow morning and there's alot of things that we've apparantly forgot to do. Panic time. Oh well. At the most I'll just skip Physics lecture tomorrow if there's a need for it.
Project work sucks. Gah.
And I was suddenly (and unpleasantly) reminded that our project work report is due tomorrow morning and there's alot of things that we've apparantly forgot to do. Panic time. Oh well. At the most I'll just skip Physics lecture tomorrow if there's a need for it.
Project work sucks. Gah.
I realized that I haven't mentioned anything about my results yet.
Anyway, it was a slight improvement from my common test. In the common test, I got COFF and B3 for GP. For the promos, I got DEO0 and a B4 for GP. Look, no Fs! And I had at least an AO pass for all my subjects. Overall, which incldes 75% Promos, 20% CT and 5% Assignments, my grades remain at DEOO, although most of them are either on the dot or rounded up to the next grade. And yay! I will get promoted and I won't need to do project work next year. I passed the criteria for promotion! (which is 1 A level pass and 2 AO level passes.)
Anyway, my Maths dropped by 1 mark. From a boderline C (55) in CT to a D (54) in Promos. Shoots. Overall it's a D, coz they took my worst test and quiz for the assignment grade. Econs was a very lucky pass, I got 44.5 or something for overall and it was rounded up to an E grade. Chem - O7 (39.5) and Physics O8 (34.5, rounded up) for overall. Quite disaterous grades. But nevermind, as long as I get promoted. :) I must say that I'm very lucky this time, I just scrapped through my exams, but barely. Have to work hard now. There may be a retest for Physics and Chemistry. :(
Oh no the internet connection is not moving AGAIN. Argh. Stupid dial-up connection. Wish i had broadband.
Anyway, it was a slight improvement from my common test. In the common test, I got COFF and B3 for GP. For the promos, I got DEO0 and a B4 for GP. Look, no Fs! And I had at least an AO pass for all my subjects. Overall, which incldes 75% Promos, 20% CT and 5% Assignments, my grades remain at DEOO, although most of them are either on the dot or rounded up to the next grade. And yay! I will get promoted and I won't need to do project work next year. I passed the criteria for promotion! (which is 1 A level pass and 2 AO level passes.)
Anyway, my Maths dropped by 1 mark. From a boderline C (55) in CT to a D (54) in Promos. Shoots. Overall it's a D, coz they took my worst test and quiz for the assignment grade. Econs was a very lucky pass, I got 44.5 or something for overall and it was rounded up to an E grade. Chem - O7 (39.5) and Physics O8 (34.5, rounded up) for overall. Quite disaterous grades. But nevermind, as long as I get promoted. :) I must say that I'm very lucky this time, I just scrapped through my exams, but barely. Have to work hard now. There may be a retest for Physics and Chemistry. :(
Oh no the internet connection is not moving AGAIN. Argh. Stupid dial-up connection. Wish i had broadband.
Ooh the net's real slow today. Took me ages just to load blogger properly.
Was in a foul mood in the morning. I sent about 10 msgs in CAPS to my poor dear friend ranting about how stupid it is that I'm expected to play the role of a big, good and nice sister and all those ungratefuls at home take me for granted. And my baby sister is a big spoilt brat. How irritating.
Now I've cooled down somewhat. Slacking online, as usual. Here's the extremely late Friday Five, done out of boredom. Or maybe it should be called Sunday Five? Haha. But then again, who cares?
1. How many TVs do you have in your home?
Only one pathetic one in the living room. Because of that, I'm forced to watch Hi-5 VCDs sometimes.
2. On average, how much TV do you watch in a week?
Since the exams are over now, I watch a bit more TV. Have lotsa VCDs to watch. And on weekdays, the 9pm show. On weekends... well, nothing interesting to watch.
3. Do you feel that television is bad for young children?
Not really. My baby sister has learnt how to sing and dance by watching Barney and Hi-5 VCDs. And she can sing the theme songs of drama serials. She can even recite the dialouge of those Barney VCDs that she watches. Ugh. You can see that I have an overdose of kiddy shows at home.
4. What TV shows do you absolutely HAVE to watch, and if you miss them, you're heartbroken?
Hm. Last time it used to be those interesting Hong Kong drama serials. And oh yes! Meteor Garden. Bwhaha.
5. If you had the power to create your own television network, what would your line-up look like?
Interesting drama serials. Haha. From Taiwan and Hong Kong. And maybe certain local productions. And certain variety shows. I watch alot of Channel 8. Bwhaha.
Was in a foul mood in the morning. I sent about 10 msgs in CAPS to my poor dear friend ranting about how stupid it is that I'm expected to play the role of a big, good and nice sister and all those ungratefuls at home take me for granted. And my baby sister is a big spoilt brat. How irritating.
Now I've cooled down somewhat. Slacking online, as usual. Here's the extremely late Friday Five, done out of boredom. Or maybe it should be called Sunday Five? Haha. But then again, who cares?
1. How many TVs do you have in your home?
Only one pathetic one in the living room. Because of that, I'm forced to watch Hi-5 VCDs sometimes.
2. On average, how much TV do you watch in a week?
Since the exams are over now, I watch a bit more TV. Have lotsa VCDs to watch. And on weekdays, the 9pm show. On weekends... well, nothing interesting to watch.
3. Do you feel that television is bad for young children?
Not really. My baby sister has learnt how to sing and dance by watching Barney and Hi-5 VCDs. And she can sing the theme songs of drama serials. She can even recite the dialouge of those Barney VCDs that she watches. Ugh. You can see that I have an overdose of kiddy shows at home.
4. What TV shows do you absolutely HAVE to watch, and if you miss them, you're heartbroken?
Hm. Last time it used to be those interesting Hong Kong drama serials. And oh yes! Meteor Garden. Bwhaha.
5. If you had the power to create your own television network, what would your line-up look like?
Interesting drama serials. Haha. From Taiwan and Hong Kong. And maybe certain local productions. And certain variety shows. I watch alot of Channel 8. Bwhaha.
Some very outdated entries that weren't posted because of my dangerously unstable computer.
Friday, 18/10/2002, at night
I think my group's project work will be the worst in my whole class. Being stuck with 3slacker guys that either 1) does everything himself without distributing the workload, 2) slacks and only thinks about his tummy the whole day, 3) ok the third guy isn't that bad. But we simply have nothing in common to talk about because yes, you guessed it, he's from SJI.
Ok I guess that was quite a biased view. And I don't know who on earth reads my blog so I shan't say anymore. You never know what's going to happen. Walls have ears. Hedges have eyes. But really, the quality of our project is... quite bad. I could have done it better. You should see our bibliography. Ugh. Or maybe I just want things done my way? As we know, guys can't really be bothered with neatness and stuff. Or that's what I think. Immature thought maybe? But who cares.
Shouldn't divulge too much info. Just heard about a case of betrayal over the net today, via online journals. Oh wells. Life's that sad.
9pm now, gonna go watch TV! :)
Oh and a side note, though out of point it may be, I changed my nice, trusty purple phone to a flashy, silver and smaller phone. But the battery's real lousy (it was my uncle's former phone) and the stupid phone died on me today. Ugh.
ok enough complaining. tata~
Sunday, 20/10/2002, 2.50AM
Devouring Marks and Spencer's choc chip cookies. Yummy, but it's bad news for my weight.
Drinking milk now. More calcium to help me grow! Bwhaha.
I think I eat too much. I just ate yummy chilli crab cup noodles barely 2 hours ago. Sheesh. Nevermind, eat now, worry later. I just can't resist those wonderful late night snacks. Temptation, lah. Although I've heard that late suppers aren't healthy (or something to that effect).
Exercise shall come later. In the form of PE. And if I have any discipline.
Anyway, I went shopping with my sis today! Haha. Bought quite a fair bit of stuff. How nice. :) Shall buy more stuff next time... that is, if I have any cash to spare. Feeling quite broke now. $_$ $_$ $_$
Oh wow, I'm at the 19th Jay Chou song already. That's fast. Heh. RealJukebox's playing in alphabetical order.
Friday, 18/10/2002, at night
I think my group's project work will be the worst in my whole class. Being stuck with 3
Ok I guess that was quite a biased view. And I don't know who on earth reads my blog so I shan't say anymore. You never know what's going to happen. Walls have ears. Hedges have eyes. But really, the quality of our project is... quite bad. I could have done it better. You should see our bibliography. Ugh. Or maybe I just want things done my way? As we know, guys can't really be bothered with neatness and stuff. Or that's what I think. Immature thought maybe? But who cares.
Shouldn't divulge too much info. Just heard about a case of betrayal over the net today, via online journals. Oh wells. Life's that sad.
9pm now, gonna go watch TV! :)
Oh and a side note, though out of point it may be, I changed my nice, trusty purple phone to a flashy, silver and smaller phone. But the battery's real lousy (it was my uncle's former phone) and the stupid phone died on me today. Ugh.
ok enough complaining. tata~
Sunday, 20/10/2002, 2.50AM
Devouring Marks and Spencer's choc chip cookies. Yummy, but it's bad news for my weight.
Drinking milk now. More calcium to help me grow! Bwhaha.
I think I eat too much. I just ate yummy chilli crab cup noodles barely 2 hours ago. Sheesh. Nevermind, eat now, worry later. I just can't resist those wonderful late night snacks. Temptation, lah. Although I've heard that late suppers aren't healthy (or something to that effect).
Exercise shall come later. In the form of PE. And if I have any discipline.
Anyway, I went shopping with my sis today! Haha. Bought quite a fair bit of stuff. How nice. :) Shall buy more stuff next time... that is, if I have any cash to spare. Feeling quite broke now. $_$ $_$ $_$
Oh wow, I'm at the 19th Jay Chou song already. That's fast. Heh. RealJukebox's playing in alphabetical order.
It's been ages since I last blogged.
Hey, it isn't my fault... whenever I want to blog, either 1) My computer screws up, or 2) Blogger screws up. Yes, so as you can see, it isn't really my fault. Mwhaha.
Wanted to go swimming (I ballooned by 4kg, it's time to exercise) but was just too lazy to drag myself out of the house. No good. How? I'll just die for OBS, which will commence on the 16th of next month. I hereby resolve to start training for OBS, coz it's an extremely physical course and I don't possess any of the physical genes. Start swimming, start jogging, start cycling... maybe I can shed those kilos that I piled on to myself. Bwhahaha.
It was Open House yesterday, performed the same songs 3 times and I'm quite bored with it now. Played till my left pinkie showed signs of a blister forming... shows that I don't really practice. If I practice frequently, I'll just get tougher skin on my finger tips, rather than blisters. Met a few juniors, dragged them over to our booth and cajoled them to sign up. Chatted with one of them for a while and got to know what's happening back in SN. Anyway, I kinda miss taking cello lessons. :( My cello playing techniques has deteriorated so badly that if my teacher saw how I played, she would scream. Yes and only 8 potential candidates signed up. Ugh. This is bad news. Very bad news. You know why? Because the minimum number of people needed to join SYF is 18. We have 9 year ones this year. To join SYF, we need to double our size my next year. We have quality, but not the quantity. If not, poof, SYF byebye.
There's alot of CCA stuff for us to do now... the business of getting more new members, the camp, the business of the new conductor, Talentime 2003, our new String Orch room, SYF 2003... sheesh, I never knew being in the SO exco could be so busy. Always had the impression that our senior Exco were quite slack, well maybe except during Talentime. I suppose if we want to accomplish alot of things, we have to work harder. I want us to be the batch to lay the foundation for the future generations of String Orch. I believe that's the wish of every one of us. (And it was my CCA teacher in charge who nominated me for OBS. I was actually a reserve, but 5 people dropped out from the original 60 so I had to take their place.)
Oh and some shameless advertising here -- do visit the String Orchestra webpage! It's done by yours truly... looks a bit plain and content wise, it isn't really complete... but whatever, just take a look! URL: http://www.geocities.com/njcso
Glad that we managed to meet Regina yesterday, even if it was only for awhile. :)
Me and my friend went to the Esplanade for a brief moment yesterday. It was so hot, humid and squeezy... I'm glad I didn't stay for long, because when I was on the bus on my way home the crowd looked even worse. But we stayed long enough to see the fireworks lighting up the sky at 8.40 ++ pm. In my opinion, there's nothing interesting about the opening ceremony, except for the fireworks.
And as for my results... well, thats another thing altogether. Another topic for another day. Haha.
Hey, it isn't my fault... whenever I want to blog, either 1) My computer screws up, or 2) Blogger screws up. Yes, so as you can see, it isn't really my fault. Mwhaha.
Wanted to go swimming (I ballooned by 4kg, it's time to exercise) but was just too lazy to drag myself out of the house. No good. How? I'll just die for OBS, which will commence on the 16th of next month. I hereby resolve to start training for OBS, coz it's an extremely physical course and I don't possess any of the physical genes. Start swimming, start jogging, start cycling... maybe I can shed those kilos that I piled on to myself. Bwhahaha.
It was Open House yesterday, performed the same songs 3 times and I'm quite bored with it now. Played till my left pinkie showed signs of a blister forming... shows that I don't really practice. If I practice frequently, I'll just get tougher skin on my finger tips, rather than blisters. Met a few juniors, dragged them over to our booth and cajoled them to sign up. Chatted with one of them for a while and got to know what's happening back in SN. Anyway, I kinda miss taking cello lessons. :( My cello playing techniques has deteriorated so badly that if my teacher saw how I played, she would scream. Yes and only 8 potential candidates signed up. Ugh. This is bad news. Very bad news. You know why? Because the minimum number of people needed to join SYF is 18. We have 9 year ones this year. To join SYF, we need to double our size my next year. We have quality, but not the quantity. If not, poof, SYF byebye.
There's alot of CCA stuff for us to do now... the business of getting more new members, the camp, the business of the new conductor, Talentime 2003, our new String Orch room, SYF 2003... sheesh, I never knew being in the SO exco could be so busy. Always had the impression that our senior Exco were quite slack, well maybe except during Talentime. I suppose if we want to accomplish alot of things, we have to work harder. I want us to be the batch to lay the foundation for the future generations of String Orch. I believe that's the wish of every one of us. (And it was my CCA teacher in charge who nominated me for OBS. I was actually a reserve, but 5 people dropped out from the original 60 so I had to take their place.)
Oh and some shameless advertising here -- do visit the String Orchestra webpage! It's done by yours truly... looks a bit plain and content wise, it isn't really complete... but whatever, just take a look! URL: http://www.geocities.com/njcso
Glad that we managed to meet Regina yesterday, even if it was only for awhile. :)
Me and my friend went to the Esplanade for a brief moment yesterday. It was so hot, humid and squeezy... I'm glad I didn't stay for long, because when I was on the bus on my way home the crowd looked even worse. But we stayed long enough to see the fireworks lighting up the sky at 8.40 ++ pm. In my opinion, there's nothing interesting about the opening ceremony, except for the fireworks.
And as for my results... well, thats another thing altogether. Another topic for another day. Haha.
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