4th Gynae Visit: Detailed Scan

3.17am: hello! This is Cell reporting here for the first time!

*waves* 

Can you see my little hands? 👋🏻

As of today, I'm

 19 weeks + 3 days old 

And I weigh exactly 301g! 😊

Anyway I don't know why my mom and dad call me Cell when it's quite obvious that I'm much bigger than a cell. 😒

This morning, I was dozing off happily in a swirl of liquid when I felt something poking me! 

Turns out that it's the sonographer trying to check out my brain, heart, and other vital organs.

Pleased to report that I'm developing well in here! ✌🏻

Other than hands I have...

Feet!

Eyes and face!

I look quite scary here huh

That's the top of my head and the pointy things at the side of my head are my ears!

Spine

And that's me sleeping!

I heard my parents telling me to be a gynaecologist because I can earn $100 in just 5 mins. Oh no I feel stressed already!

#celljourney #pregnancy

10.23pm: it's the last day of 2016! Certainly didn't feel like it to me haha I dunno why.

Boring old married couple here staying at home and playing candy crush and waiting for the countdown show on TV 😅

It's true - when you're in your 30s you will just stay at home and nua lol 

I can't even remember what I did last year on NYE!

Had our own little steamboat for 2 at home to celebrate NYE!

Haven't eaten so much ever since I got pregnant! Wah think I overate. Super full and was quite uncomfortable with the expanded tummy, growing cell and squashed internal organs!

We actually planned to go for thanksgiving mass but after an exploding meal and chores I felt really lazy :x

Vegetating on the couch in the same position with our bears while waiting for the countdown to start heh

My belly suddenly grew really round in the past 2 weeks 😱😨

But this is a food baby + a real baby so it's slightly bigger than usual haha

And Paul's is just a food baby of course haha. Comparable to mine?

18 weeks pregnant today! Is it almost halfway through? That's fast!

I seem to be starting to pack on the pounds. Belly is also starting to get round!

While I am not really looking forward to the idea of raising a kid (oh the tantrums! the crying! the defiance!) I actually feel quite excited about it coming lol. Does it make sense? It sounds very conflicting.

But maybe after it comes I'll feel damn sian. Paul thinks I will just flick my wrist but I think people like me who are wildly resistant to children may end up even more upset after giving birth. But I dunno. Need to re-evaluate 5 months later.

OMG IT IS 5 MONTHS LATER ONLY!!!! How terrifying!

(See, conflicting emotions again.)

Not sure what to write here.

Recently experiencing some body changes and need to wait to see the doctor to confirm. After hearing about how some people can still experience pregnancy symptoms but the foetus actually has no more heartbeat, I have been mentally preparing myself for this possibility. Because the line on my 2nd test was fainter than my 1st test. Does this mean the hCG hormone levels are dropping?

Our December holiday plans are hence in limbo because of this.

IF this pregnancy is successful, it is probably going to be pretty life changing. Anyone who knows me well knows that I hate kids! Now I'm gonna have to be stuck with one for life. Not looking forward.

IF this pregnancy for some reason is not successful, it is also probably going to be life changing. But maybe on a smaller magnitude. Maybe it will make me realize that I do want to have a kid of my own after all and re-evaluate how I look at them.

Either way, KIDS ARE LIFE CHANGING (and noisy and troublesome and blah blah). That's why I don't like them.

And oh, our wedding anniversary is coming up! So fast!

And we moved house! To a low cost budget hostel... haha well it does seem like it's a low cost budget hostel to me. That's another story for another day.

My life has been taken over by Pokemon Go!

Still in a funk at work.

The previous post has been removed due to sensitive content, at the request of le husband!

Doing office duty today on a declared school holiday. Hai regretting it the moment I woke up coz it's such a nice rainy day to sleep in.

History in the making - UK has exited the European Union. Is it a good time to visit London this year? 1 British Pound is 1.87 SGD now!

In two minds about taking another long holiday in December. On one hand I would really like to, but on the other, we have really limited resources, plus travelling can get quite tiring. Given my limited number of days of leave, I doubt there's really sufficient time to have a real leisurely trip to take in the sights and sounds.

Met up with our independent financial advisor yesterday too and planning to get an early critical illness policy by the end of this year, so that would mean my entire AWS will go to the premium, and not to holidays.

Sigh! All these grown up responsibilities suck. I've always been quite YOLO, so while I try to save, my savings are probably way way lesser than those of my peers. Coz all my money usually goes to holidays and materialistic things. So it's really a bummer that I can't even get to enjoy my money after working hard for one year coz it's got to go into paying insurance premiums.

I just realized people are drawing salaries of 7-8K at my age. If like that then I'm possibly a super underachiever! I thought my husband's salary is already buay pai (1.5x of mine) but he is probably earning the least among all his friends omg.

Also maybe growing older = wanting to stay rooted and losing that spirit of adventure, getting more lethargic, getting more jaded, and that sense of wonderment at new things or even life in general? Practically non-existent. I think it takes a lot more for me to feel amazed and excited about things now.

The post-holiday blues are REAL.

Shrouded by a sense of doom and gloom once I stepped into office. The last time I felt this way was when I returned after a 3 week long honeymoon. Back then I felt very overwhelmed by work and had a crazy urge to quit my job.

For 10 days, I forgot that I even had a job. Life was so carefree! After 10 days, I feel that same sense of dread and gloom. 

Maybe longer holidays aren't such a good idea now. I should aim for shorter breaks maybe? Less taxing on the bank account too.

The lucky thing is I'm not as jetlagged as I imagine! In fact I was functioning pretty well despite arriving at 5am in the morning after a red-eye flight from Incheon.

Hello June.

Slightly more than a week to Gillian's wedding!

And also I would like to say that 1st June is not the halfway mark of the year.

Sorry I cannot. I think people who say that 1st June is the halfway mark cannot count and I secretly judge them for that. Hah!

Restless.

How exactly does one find drive and motivation at work?

I don't like my job and the people that much but at the same time I can't guarantee that I'll find something else that's better.

Heard there's another resignation today.

My boss is quite an interesting character. She has lofty dreams of striking Toto and has it all planned - use half a million to start a company and she said she will then employ us to work at her company (not sure if that's in jest).

She has described her plans to us at least twice - once during the CNY angbao draw and once yesterday. LOL. And they are fairly consistent plans.

I think she and Paul will hit it off quite well! Paul likes to dream of striking the lottery too. Hahaha.

Also I'm getting old and I can't remember dates well. So is Paul actually. Haha.

We both couldn't remember how many years it's been since we met and started dating.

Long long ago I would remember dates religiously and prepare special cards or do some fancy mancy stuff. I think it was the novelty of it all. Haha. Never dated before the effort was 100%!

I feel a little contrite that I don't seem to be putting much effort into this relationship when it comes to things like this. It shouldn't be the way coz constant effort is needed to maintain the relationship!

Guess it doesn't help that our love languages are also quite different. Mine is probably acts of service, but his is physical touch. -_-"

So anyway! Reminder to self to be more touchy feely when it comes to le husband. LOL!

If you haven't already known (read here), I was diagnosed with herpes recently. *insert horror face emoji*

It's tongue herpes, a viral disease caused by the herpes simplex virus and I believe it's also the reason for all those long suffering years of recurrent tongue/mouth ulcers.

Rather unfortunate, and to put it simply - there is no cure. I can only prevent it from developing into full blown ulcers when I feel it coming by taking medication.

But it's also some sort of a relief to finally put a finger on this weird condition that I've been having. At least it's nothing too serious! I won't die from it.

After taking the prescribed medicine for a couple of days, my ulcers are clearing up! It's getting better, lesser and not so painful. At least now I can eat and talk comfortably.

Hm I hope I won't spread it to other people though! :x I don't exactly know how contagious this is.

Recently committed myself to a pilates package at Upside Motion also. Really super expensive, and painful to part with so much money at one go. But I need to tone up and I hope this will help me achieve that! Kinda stopped going for sessions with Corinne also so I hope pilates coupled with my weekly jogs and occasional swims will help me lose some weight.

Haha unbelievable, reading the blog of this girl who said she won't get any laundry done during the week when her mother is away on a work trip.

Not like she very young leh, 25 or 26 already?

How hard is it to throw clothes into the washing machine?

Aiyo is this the new generation that our society is breeding?

Sorry I am totally judging you now! Please don't be so dependent on your parents!!!!

Today at work I also heard a lot about how the kids nowadays find inference difficult coz they don't even observe any more. They are just glued to the phone all the time.

Hence they don't observe, can't think, can't infer.

Wah very sad like that. I don't know what to think of the 草莓族. I think I will die if I work with them.

And the sad thing is, I'll probably still be slogging and have to work with them when they enter the workforce.

Anyway if you haven't watched Descendants of the Sun already (are u hiding in a cave?!), please watch coz I think it's one of the better Korean dramas I've watched recently!

Popping by to say HELLO! I'm still alive and kicking!

Another new month!

Getting increasingly tongue-tied (finger-tied?) when it comes to coming up with blog posts. Should I cease blogging?

Mundane things that I do in my daily life seem far too trivial for this platform (there's always Dayre for such content). Plus it's quite inconvenient to actually post photos.

Blogs seem more suitable for "heavier" content which to be honest, my brain is not capable of producing at this life stage. Nothing "heavy" going on in my life now also ahaha. Which I should be grateful for.

Too much of my life experiences contained in this URL. A bit of a pity also la.

Anyway I would like to add that initially I thought I would get a comfortable sum of money for my PB this year to replenish my starving bank account... but then after allocating money for insurance savings, trips, and possible home rental, and paying off all my credit card bills and debts, I have about zero left. Yikes! I have about $20 left in my DBS account now #truestory so the vicious cycle of perpetually being penniless continues....

I wonder how people actually manage to stash tens of thousands of dollars away?! I can never seem to grow my cash!

Down with my usual sensitive airways cough (bye money) at this time of the year which is unusual... usually I get it after I come back from a cold country. I suspect it's coz I went to jog last week when it was terribly hazy in the evening.

Also getting itchy butt syndrome!

Just back from a short trip to Bangkok over the March hols. Can't decide if I like long trips better or short trips. Short trips feel a little too short to feel well rested (and it passes in a flash), but long trips can be quite draggy! And nothing is more sian than coming back to work after a long trip. Hah. Actually as long as I get a holiday, I shouldn't be complaining eh? #firstworldproblems

The trip was good, but wish I had more stomachs to do more eating. The shopping at the markets was not too bad, but it was so crowded and SO HOT! Goodness. I would rather just stay in air-con comfort now. Like my idea of a chillax holiday is hang around in air-con places in the day, sip tea and eat cake at a cafe or go cafehopping, hunt for food, go for a massage and eat some street food at night lol.

Haha unfortunately my husband thinks spending money on cafe food is a waste of money and he would rather eat real Thai food. But I don't mind real Thai food too! I have sooooo many food places on my list that we didn't get to go to due to the lack of time, like SabX2 wanton mee!

I think I need another trip back to Bangkok soon. Haha my last trip to Bangkok was in 2007 I think and I don't even remember much about that trip, it was like as if I've never been there before! Nothing looked familiar lol. And I had foot massages every day it was so shiok.

Need more annual leave please! :(

Hello March!

Somehow almost 20% of the year has gone by?! The days are long but the weeks pass by in a flash. Term 1 is almost over.

And needless to say, weekends feel even shorter.

Spent Friday evening catching up with Gassers and Saturday with some new found friends - feasting at Parkroyal Pickering's Lime and KTV and shooting darts. Haps!

Also trying to pick up something new this month - roller blading! Had a go at it yesterday and I could roll along merrily... but I can't brake. Ahahaha.

I miss my old activities like baking a little but since I don't have all my tools with me, I can't do much. Sundays are usually such a rush for time also - mass, grocery shopping, ironing, evening jog, mask, prepare breakfast/lunch for the week, and before you know it, it's 12am!!!! #wheredidthetimego

Cursory update over, just so that I won't forget what happened in my life during this period. Haha.

Horribly sleepy day at work! Zzzzzzzz

As usual, can't wait for the weekend!

Oh yes. Celebrated Slumpy, Squishy and Rolly's birthdays recently. Hee. :)

Slumpy is a Valentine's bear. Although he's not with us anymore, he is still dearly missed!

Squishy and Rolly are our proposal bears. Since they turned 2 recently, it means we have been engaged for 2 years!

Floppy's birthday is on 21 Dec 2015. So he's the youngest of them all!

Hellloooo February.

New things this month:

1) Started on KFit
2) Gave out angbaos for the very first time and felt very poor
3) Moved back home coz parents are out of town
4) Gained 2kg thanks to festive feasting and a lack of control :(
5) Celebrated Slumpy's birthday without Slumpy :'(
6) Stood in line for 1 hour to buy 4D and Toto -__-"

Ah, lusting over cameras and camera lenses!!!

I bought an 40-150mm Olympus lens recently but I'm thinking if it's a bit of an impulse purchase? My initial plan was to get the 45mm f1.8 but it was pretty costly! When I went down to the shop, the uncle told me that actually my Panasonic 20mm f1.7 is already good enough and since I didn't have a good zoom lens, the 40-150mm would be a better bet. Plus it was going at only $299 which is cheaper than the 45mm so I was sold. My sister used it at her EXO concert recently and I think she managed to get some pretty decent shots and videos. The only drawback is the aperture was not as wide as I hoped (f4 at its widest).

But now with the upcoming release of the Olympus Pen-F and all these pretty pics I keep seeing, I'm tempted again!!! Oh man. I don't think I'll shell out $1200 for the Pen-F since my EPL-7 is still quite young and new. But it is indeed a very attractive camera. :O

And the 45mm 1.8! Maybe I should get a second hand one on Carousell! Cheapest $280. Maybe can use a bit of my PB in March to fund it!

Ahhh really shouldn't be looking at all these WANTS and then spending unnecessary money. Haha.

Oh no I have nothing to talk about.

I have no more independent thoughts.

No musings.

No reflections.

Maybe I'll post some photos instead.

Last photo with all 3 bears :( in Bern

Mount Titlis

Venice

Pisa

Florence

Rome

Vatican City

I haven't even sorted my Finland and France photos to post on FB... haha am I slow or am I slow.

One of my favourite shots from the wedding!

After all the trouble I went to find vendors for decor and prop rental and flowers... I forgot to tell my photog to go down to the canteen in the basement to take photos of all the hard work and sweat. Argh!

Realized I didn't mention much about the wedding on this blog. Life indeed moves too fast for me to even process or sit down to write anything.