I've heard this song so many times in the past but it only struck a chord in me when I heard it again on the bus today.

S Club 7 - Never Had A Dream Come True

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I've lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, oh baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

A part of me will always be... with you...

The weekend was good. I was glad we had that weekend of cherished and precious happy moments.

At least there was some much needed closure. Need to learn to move on. It will be a long road but I will learn to be happy.

Front row seats at BEAST's showcase! :) It was awesomeness having such a great and unblocked view :) Seeing Korean stars just within my reach! They were soooo close that they didn't look like ants for once. They even shook (or in some cases, touched) my hand. Very handsome. :)

It's a pity the strict security didn't allow for any photos. But nonetheless it was a good experience to remember. The fans' screams were deafening. I can hear my ears ringing.

I don't know what's gonna happen over the weekend but I don't think it can get any worse than China.

So much for all that planning for the China trip. The planning came to naught. Other things eclipsed the whole essence of going on a holiday - which is essentially to enjoy yourself and give yourself a break, and I achieved none of that. This trip has been the worst trip I've ever taken in my life. In so many ways.

Couldn't believe that initially I was dreading the 17th. I shouldn't even have dreaded the 17th because whatever was meant to happen happened, 17th or not. The heavens are playing tricks on me. It's been a tumultuous 5 weeks. It's upsetting to say the least.

I am trying to salvage something that is already broken beyond repair.

I'm proud to say that I've more or less completed my packing! Compared to the last time when I went to Cambodia and started packing only at like 6am...

Still, I have to go to work tomorrow morning. How I wish I had taken a full day's leave instead. Can't believe it was almost a year ago that I was embarking on my Japan adventure! And now 1 year later it's China. We are still undecided if we should spend 2 whole days at the Shanghai World Expo and forgo all sight seeing in Shanghai. This would probably mean a lot of squeezing, jostling with loud and aggressive people and queuing. One of my travel companions has been to Shanghai before and would prefer to visit the Expo. The other may not be so keen. I am on the fence. Anyone can offer thoughts/suggestions?

Anyway it seems like my exercising efforts have paid off! Quite a random number of people have commented that I now look run down or have lost weight. Maybe my face is now smaller? Hahaha!

And it's been 32 days.

Our fridge has broken down after 21 years. Now we have a new fridge! It looks out of place because it's too huge to put in that little corner where the old fridge once stood. But my mom is displeased because there's a scratch on the new fridge. So she's getting the people to send another one down. And now I'm hungry and there's no milk to drink. :(

1.5 more days to China... I think this is probably the first time that I'm not super excited about an upcoming trip. I have to travel with 2 people who are at loggerheads with each other. And this trip is significant in more ways than one. One thing is for sure though, I will be more than super sian when I come back on the 17th...

I'm cherishing precious moments before they all disappear too soon... :(

2nd June turned out to be a really bad day. :(

I only clocked 4 posts in May. Wow. I'm really turning into a sporadic blogger.

Here's the first post in June. Almost half of 2010 is over! What have you accomplished for the past 5 months? For me it has been mainly work and trying to find a new job and some other stuff. End of update of my boring life.

How come I used to find so many things to ramble about? I am now at a loss for words. Or maybe there are just too many things that are inappropriate to talk about?

Self-censorship at its finest moment. :) Sigh. The perils of growing up.

Then I wonder what my blog is for?